Tomorrow I turn 26.
This is something that a number of people in my life didn’t think I would achieve, in a large part due to my struggle with not wanting to.
For 14 years I have struggled with mental health issues in a variety of ways, I still struggle. Every day is a battle, it has gotten easier as I am now equipped with the right armour, the right weapons and the right people to stand beside me. For that I am eternally grateful.
I am grateful for so very much in my life, not least of all the fact that I am still alive.
One of the many reasons I am still alive is Grace (not a human.) Now this blog isn’t about my faith, and trying to get people to become Christians, this blog is about me being honest, about me being authentic, and sometimes that means I’m going to talk about my faith. This is one of those times, but I ask of you to not stop reading simply for that matter.
For me having a faith, a relationship with Christ, is more than rules and regulations, about the do’s and do nots. For me it is a lifestyle, it is about freedom, about fulfilment and ultimately it is about Grace.
I 100% believe that there was a chap called Jesus of Nazareth, I 100% believe that He was God, I 100% believe that he was crucified and most importantly I believe 100% that he rose again, and because of this I choose to live my life a certain way. I know that Christ did this because he loves me and wants me to experience life in it’s fullness, and the only way I can do that is by accepting his grace. I know that, despite all my many struggles, I will never be truly happy and fulfilled without this faith and relationship, without this knowledge of Grace. I know that without this Grace I wouldn’t have had the strength or resources to make it to 26 years of age.
I’m telling you all this for a reason I promise.
You see one of the things that I like about myself is this recognition that I have that I need Grace, that others need Grace and that I *try* to live my life by showing Grace by being authentic to that, to treating others as I would want to be treated, to respecting them and loving them and forgiving them, to show others the Grace that I have so freely been given.
I choose to believe the best in people, I long for them to find the fulfilment that I have, I long for them to find the joy that I have. I just want people to be happy and it to be all rainbows and puppies. I want people to find the strength that I have.
Grace has made me a better person, it helps me see past myself, it helps me to see that what I go through as a purpose and ultimately it makes me grateful for how far I have come, who I am, for the people, the friends and family I have around me.
I like that I have received Grace, that I try to have Grace and that I try to show Grace.